I LOVE YA TOMORROW! Posted by Emily , Wednesday, April 28, 2010 at 5:37 PM, in

Today I Had!!:

*Chem test: 88%. SCORE.

*Spanish Listening final. My teacher teared up as she told us goodbye forever...sad.

*Last day of my last math class ever...also very sad. I LOVE MATH, OKAY??

*Last Lab: was there for literally 5 minutes. turned in the notebook and jetted.

However, now:

*Edit/Rewrite my Paper for a stricter, more controversial thesis. This is the last one. I repeat, this is my last paper of my last English class ever. BINGO!!

Annnnnnnd!!!!! Friday is dead day. Annnnnnd Saturday after mi examen final del espanol, i get to go to TOAD SUCK DAZZZE and cheer on my buddy Osh-Kosh B'Gosh, yuh heard?

Woo! now i'm going to retreat to the study room and write this sheeeet of paper:)

Four Twenty. Posted by Emily , Monday, April 19, 2010 at 11:27 PM, in

For this girl, 4/20 has a different meaning than it does for most college kids:)

Today, I've been dating my boyfriend for two years. But I don't really like the term 'boyfriend.' It's not fitting.. He's my best friend. I wish I could rewind my memories to mid March 2008 and then hit fast forward. Junior prom and just wanting to get to the after party :), meeting the families hahaha, first summer together, working at Jump Zone, his birthday at the park, his dad's house, Senior year, hammocking, Halloween, first Christmas, all the cops, senior prom :), graduation, Senior trip, lake, 2nd summer, starting college!, growing up. We've definitely had some pretty intense times and second guessings and disagreements. We've hurt each other, but we've gotten closer because of it. I think that if we can stay together through such a vital part of growing up, we can stay together through the really tough stuff, too. I'd love to go back and do it all the same again. I'm so excited to see what happens next. This summer is gonna test us. and next year...but we'll figure it out as we go.

I love you, Tay. Thanks Babe :)

I'm usually not this sappy. But I'm so happy!

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!! Posted by Emily , Thursday, April 15, 2010 at 8:17 PM, in

The countdown has begun, folks.

2 weeks of class.

3 weeks til summer.

Spanish Composition tomorrow.

1 more Comp paper.

1 more History quiz.

5 finals.

5 days until a very special day: 4/20.

Had a really good talk with Lauren tonight.

I miss you, Jordy.

Last time I was up this late on a school night: NEVER. breaking all kinds of records this week..

I like Hookah-ing.....

Hopefully I'll still be able to run tomorrow.

I definitely need to.

And I need a nap.

I still have to write that freaking history paper.

WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME??!! I'm like an irresponsible college kid or something...

El Futuro Posted by Emily , Wednesday, April 14, 2010 at 11:57 AM, in

Isn't life strange? Tay made a good point. This pattern that everyone get in is ridiculously repetitive and boring: birth, school, work, die. Of course there are good times and lotsa love along the way, but i mean...the basic outline is all about competing to live. We're like animals! Without all the freedom. I think each person should have specific things they offer to the world (we all have those anyway). You choose something you love to do that contributes to the lives of those around you. If we all did this, everyone would have everything they needed for survival. We'd all grow our food (it's not that hard), go fishing, spend as much time outside as possible, be one with nature, and be happy living and loving and laughing. No stress over money or competition over who is the best. We could sleep in hammocks and bathe in the lake. I'm not sure what we'd do when it got cold though...hmmm....

Wednesdays suck. Posted by Emily , Tuesday, April 13, 2010 at 9:02 PM, in

Wednesdays suck.

Wednesdays suck.

Wednesdays suuuuuckkkkk.

Wrote my comp paper.

Gotta write my history paper.

Gotta study for my Spanish writing.

Gotta do my Cal quiz.

Wanna go camping this weekend.

love you, people.

Work. Posted by Emily , Monday, April 12, 2010 at 10:35 AM, in

What an awful, exciting, happy, sad, hilarious, crazy high-low weekend that was!

sooo glad it's over...but now i'm just exhausted

and now it's monday.

and i have so much work to do.

-Comp: creative rough draft, thesis proposal

-History: paper

-Spanish: Composition

Relationships are work too.

Wouldn't they be boring and never grow or get any better if they weren't, though?

I think I'll get an energy shot tonight and stay up late.

Wish me luck?

Why?? Posted by Emily , Saturday, April 10, 2010 at 2:07 AM, in

Why do I always end up feeling like this?

Why do I always let myself get hurt?

Why do I put up with this?

Why do I forgive so easily and never forget?

I've changed so much this semester. I've grown up really quickly. I've realized what I want to do with my life, and I don't want to waste any more time on reckless hobbies or laziness. I feel like there is one person who truly understands me. I don't know what to do now. I love so hard and give so much. Why can't I get that too? I think I deserve to...don't I? It's like the one thing I've been counting on for so long is right in front of me, struggling to stand up. I can't always be the strong one to pick it back up. I struggle too. What's going to happen? I have always been a planner, organizer, level headed thinker-aheader...I can't see the future.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5

Trusting has been really difficult for me to do lately...

Please pray for me. I have to be able to trust.

Bittersweet. Posted by Emily , Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 10:24 AM, in

Today has been rather high and low.

1. Got tons of sleep last night.

2. Not feelin so hot about my spanish test.

3. Found out Tay and I can't go to Girltalk.

4. Ran

5. Found out I've lost a lot of my running distance ability

6. Stocked for summer and next year with the apartment.

7. Really sad about Tay not being here. really sad. but he's really excited, so I have to be excited for him.

I hope you have a wonderful day.

I am blessed. I should have nothing to complain or be upset about.

Just what I needed :) Posted by Emily , Tuesday, April 6, 2010 at 8:18 AM, in

Today's just one of those happy days.

Gorgeous weather. Nice early run. Breakfast with my long lost Goodey. No Comp!

I think I'll clean up the room, maybe do some laundry, and read outside. Ahhh..

"You give me what I needed

Even on the brightest day

Even in a hurricane."

-What I need: Dave Barnes

i lost 4 pounds of solid fat in 4 weeks and gained lean muscle.

now, 2 weeks later i weigh more than i did before and i'm disgusted.

how does this happen?