Love. Posted by Emily , Saturday, October 16, 2010 at 11:59 PM, in

I've been in a lovey state of mind lately. It most likely stems from the ever-growing love I have for my amazing boyfriend, who has really been so wonderful and supportive in the last couple weeks as I have stressed and complained about my dread and worry about the PCAT. Not only that, I feel like our relationship has taken a huge step forward, and I'm so happy with where we are right now. I wouldn't change a single thing..well besides the separate schools thing. I'm just so happy! and I love him so much :)

In addition to my wonderful relationship putting me into this state of mind, my beautiful best friend Jordan is now engaged! ENGAGED!! I am so happy for her. She deserves the best, and she has found it! I'm so excited!!

God has been speaking to me through several people, and when I take a second to pause my busy mind, I see right in front of me all of the blessings he has poured into my life. Yeah, I'm stressed out, but most of that is my own stupid fault. I've gotta learn to apply the gifts He has given me to my every day. For one I'd be less stressed out and worried about myself.. But also, I don't deserve any of those things I've been graciously given, and I have gotta learn to turn them around and give them back. It's so easy in a place as huge as U of A to blend into the crowd and block out the people around me and not pay attention. I wanna be different.

I've had a greeeat weekend home. These weekends are never long enough...Tomorrow is back to Fay, but hopefully I'll be taking a new attitude with me. The PCAT is done, and I have some room to relax :)

Have a rad week. Love someone.

Sophomore YEAR! Posted by Emily , Wednesday, August 25, 2010 at 7:07 PM, in

I'm in a really good mood.

Great week so far. I love the apartment and my Roomie.

PCAT is in 7 WEEKS. pray for me, please. i'm freakin out, dude.

I miss my boyfriend. A whole lot. 9 Days!

So excited about this weather! Can't wait for fall :):):)

"Great peace have they who love Your law, and nothing can make them stumble." Psalm 119:165

Eyes on the Prize.

....my new motto?

I have a lot of great motivation to kick some butt this year. I'm off to a good start :)

Random thoughts. Posted by Emily , Friday, July 30, 2010 at 11:39 PM, in

Oh my goodness, tomorrow is AUGUST!! The month of change, excitement, sadness, and joy! Summer class is ending, I get to see my camp friends, move into my apartment, start my sophomore and final year in fayetteville, study for the PCAT, aaaannnd leave my beloved man behind for a year of a distance relationship. see? it's bittersweet, i know.

What an odd summer this has been...

Camp was AMAZING. I love that place. The Lord's works are everywhere you look! From the staff and counselors to the hearts of the kids, His hand is constantly at work and His Spirit moving! I really stepped out of my box and grew there. I miss it so much. I made some wonderful friends, and I'm so excited to hang out with the Fayetteville and nearby ones throughout the year!

Camp isn't the reason the summer was odd, even though I'd never done anything like it before. Last summer I didn't believe that it was our final one together as a group of friends. I haven't even seen or spoken to half of my dear high school friends all summer. It's so sad. I love them. College shouldn't create this much trouble to get together!! Hope they are doing well.

Verse of the Day:

''Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God—children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.'' John 1:12-13

Dude.

I'm finished with Camp. Now what? I dont remember what I'm supposed to do during the summer....

So Close. Posted by Emily , Monday, May 3, 2010 at 10:06 PM, in

Summer. is. literally. 3 days away.

I managed an A in Comp II!!!! Miracle. I feel bad for being lucky at school. It makes people hate me...I'm really NOT that intelligent.

I've been learning/realizing things about relationships lately. The best ones come out of nowhere and are the best because you are 100% you. You don't care if they think you're a dork. I'm one of the biggest dorks I know! When I meet people it's hard for me to let that side show...Why? because some people inhibit my abilities somehow. I need a force shield. Also, in college, most of the relationships I've established are closer than the ones I've been making for years. It's very interestingly awesome. As this school year comes to a close, I'd like to say how thankful I am for everything that has happened to me in the past 9 months. I've opened my mind to many new things, hookah and black and milds for example. (but not all the time of course!) I've grown up. I've met some AMAAAZING people who will be in my life for a long time. I've gonna miss them this summer. Next year, when I come back--I'll have even more fun, but I'll also have to grow up a lot more and be mature about things I can't control. I'm still going to stand for the same things, though. If I dont, you better hold me to it!

Ready for a Hype summer!!

War Eagle: 19 Days

Lake: 59ish days

Tay's House: so so close.

BE STRONG. PEOPLE ARE WATCHING YOU.

I LOVE YA TOMORROW! Posted by Emily , Wednesday, April 28, 2010 at 5:37 PM, in

Today I Had!!:

*Chem test: 88%. SCORE.

*Spanish Listening final. My teacher teared up as she told us goodbye forever...sad.

*Last day of my last math class ever...also very sad. I LOVE MATH, OKAY??

*Last Lab: was there for literally 5 minutes. turned in the notebook and jetted.

However, now:

*Edit/Rewrite my Paper for a stricter, more controversial thesis. This is the last one. I repeat, this is my last paper of my last English class ever. BINGO!!

Annnnnnnd!!!!! Friday is dead day. Annnnnnd Saturday after mi examen final del espanol, i get to go to TOAD SUCK DAZZZE and cheer on my buddy Osh-Kosh B'Gosh, yuh heard?

Woo! now i'm going to retreat to the study room and write this sheeeet of paper:)

Four Twenty. Posted by Emily , Monday, April 19, 2010 at 11:27 PM, in

For this girl, 4/20 has a different meaning than it does for most college kids:)

Today, I've been dating my boyfriend for two years. But I don't really like the term 'boyfriend.' It's not fitting.. He's my best friend. I wish I could rewind my memories to mid March 2008 and then hit fast forward. Junior prom and just wanting to get to the after party :), meeting the families hahaha, first summer together, working at Jump Zone, his birthday at the park, his dad's house, Senior year, hammocking, Halloween, first Christmas, all the cops, senior prom :), graduation, Senior trip, lake, 2nd summer, starting college!, growing up. We've definitely had some pretty intense times and second guessings and disagreements. We've hurt each other, but we've gotten closer because of it. I think that if we can stay together through such a vital part of growing up, we can stay together through the really tough stuff, too. I'd love to go back and do it all the same again. I'm so excited to see what happens next. This summer is gonna test us. and next year...but we'll figure it out as we go.

I love you, Tay. Thanks Babe :)

I'm usually not this sappy. But I'm so happy!

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!! Posted by Emily , Thursday, April 15, 2010 at 8:17 PM, in

The countdown has begun, folks.

2 weeks of class.

3 weeks til summer.

Spanish Composition tomorrow.

1 more Comp paper.

1 more History quiz.

5 finals.

5 days until a very special day: 4/20.

Had a really good talk with Lauren tonight.

I miss you, Jordy.

Last time I was up this late on a school night: NEVER. breaking all kinds of records this week..

I like Hookah-ing.....

Hopefully I'll still be able to run tomorrow.

I definitely need to.

And I need a nap.

I still have to write that freaking history paper.

WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME??!! I'm like an irresponsible college kid or something...

El Futuro Posted by Emily , Wednesday, April 14, 2010 at 11:57 AM, in

Isn't life strange? Tay made a good point. This pattern that everyone get in is ridiculously repetitive and boring: birth, school, work, die. Of course there are good times and lotsa love along the way, but i mean...the basic outline is all about competing to live. We're like animals! Without all the freedom. I think each person should have specific things they offer to the world (we all have those anyway). You choose something you love to do that contributes to the lives of those around you. If we all did this, everyone would have everything they needed for survival. We'd all grow our food (it's not that hard), go fishing, spend as much time outside as possible, be one with nature, and be happy living and loving and laughing. No stress over money or competition over who is the best. We could sleep in hammocks and bathe in the lake. I'm not sure what we'd do when it got cold though...hmmm....

Wednesdays suck. Posted by Emily , Tuesday, April 13, 2010 at 9:02 PM, in

Wednesdays suck.

Wednesdays suck.

Wednesdays suuuuuckkkkk.

Wrote my comp paper.

Gotta write my history paper.

Gotta study for my Spanish writing.

Gotta do my Cal quiz.

Wanna go camping this weekend.

love you, people.

Work. Posted by Emily , Monday, April 12, 2010 at 10:35 AM, in

What an awful, exciting, happy, sad, hilarious, crazy high-low weekend that was!

sooo glad it's over...but now i'm just exhausted

and now it's monday.

and i have so much work to do.

-Comp: creative rough draft, thesis proposal

-History: paper

-Spanish: Composition

Relationships are work too.

Wouldn't they be boring and never grow or get any better if they weren't, though?

I think I'll get an energy shot tonight and stay up late.

Wish me luck?

Why?? Posted by Emily , Saturday, April 10, 2010 at 2:07 AM, in

Why do I always end up feeling like this?

Why do I always let myself get hurt?

Why do I put up with this?

Why do I forgive so easily and never forget?

I've changed so much this semester. I've grown up really quickly. I've realized what I want to do with my life, and I don't want to waste any more time on reckless hobbies or laziness. I feel like there is one person who truly understands me. I don't know what to do now. I love so hard and give so much. Why can't I get that too? I think I deserve to...don't I? It's like the one thing I've been counting on for so long is right in front of me, struggling to stand up. I can't always be the strong one to pick it back up. I struggle too. What's going to happen? I have always been a planner, organizer, level headed thinker-aheader...I can't see the future.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5

Trusting has been really difficult for me to do lately...

Please pray for me. I have to be able to trust.

Bittersweet. Posted by Emily , Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 10:24 AM, in

Today has been rather high and low.

1. Got tons of sleep last night.

2. Not feelin so hot about my spanish test.

3. Found out Tay and I can't go to Girltalk.

4. Ran

5. Found out I've lost a lot of my running distance ability

6. Stocked for summer and next year with the apartment.

7. Really sad about Tay not being here. really sad. but he's really excited, so I have to be excited for him.

I hope you have a wonderful day.

I am blessed. I should have nothing to complain or be upset about.

Just what I needed :) Posted by Emily , Tuesday, April 6, 2010 at 8:18 AM, in

Today's just one of those happy days.

Gorgeous weather. Nice early run. Breakfast with my long lost Goodey. No Comp!

I think I'll clean up the room, maybe do some laundry, and read outside. Ahhh..

"You give me what I needed

Even on the brightest day

Even in a hurricane."

-What I need: Dave Barnes

i lost 4 pounds of solid fat in 4 weeks and gained lean muscle.

now, 2 weeks later i weigh more than i did before and i'm disgusted.

how does this happen?

helllp Posted by Emily , Tuesday, March 30, 2010 at 6:04 PM, in

I have to write this paper.

I have to write this paper.

I have to write this paper.

I have to stop blogging.

I have to go.

I want to go together with you. Posted by Emily , Monday, March 29, 2010 at 9:48 PM, in

Window to the sky
A telescope to the eye
Like a stamp to a letter
I want to know You better
I want to be so much nearer
I want to go together with You

Like a photograph to a smile
A runner to a mile
Like strings to a cello
Like a wave to a "Hello, how are you?"
Want to go together with You

Like a face in the mirror
I want to see You clearer
I want to be so much nearer
I want to go together with You
Want to go together with You

Paint to a canvas
First day to nervous
Birthday to a wish
Long distance call to I miss you
Want to go together with you

Lock to a key, yeah
You to me

Want to go together with You
Want to go together with You

-Jillian Edwards

look at how far we've come!

thanks, babe for making me smile:)

Oh man... Posted by Emily , at 8:56 PM, in

Don't you hate those days when you just have wayyyy too much to do. I realized I am very jam packed with STUFF...

1. Paper

2. Cal Quiz

3. Cal Test

4. Lab

5. Softball game

all before wednesday..ay yi yi.

My personal challenge:

"Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong. Do everything in love."

-1 Cor. 16: 13&14

Prayer would be very much appreciated.

On another note! Fun night riding with Ash and Sarah. I don't think Tay and Steve enjoyed it as much as we did. Softball game Wednesday night: if i make it to then, it's gonna be sooo fun!! Mumtaz--go blue!

"You're never happier than you are when you're laughing..." Posted by Emily , Sunday, March 28, 2010 at 8:25 PM, in

What's better than laughing? Laughing with someone you love very much.

Laughter=happiness and is a central part of your best relationships. Some may even say it's a central part of love. If you can laugh with someone, they make you happy. If you're always laughing with someone, you're always happy, and that's what makes you love. Laughing makes you feel more comfortable, and with comfort comes more things to laugh at--including each other! I'm not really sure where I'm going with this, but a couple nights ago, someone rather special said something about laughing and love that stuck in my head.

"You smile, I smile..."

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves." Phil 2:3

you give me presents with your presence alone Posted by Emily , Saturday, March 27, 2010 at 4:55 PM, in

Spring Break 2010 was not everything I wanted it to be..I took the ENO with me everywhere I went and never used it :( but i did get to see every one of my grandparents, my 2 beautiful, strong 89-year-old great-grandmothers, and some great aunts and uncles. and at first I thought it wasn't so cool cuz i didn't get to do everything i wanted to do, but now i'm glad i didn't! I love my family! I kicked some butt in poker last night, btw.

"But you're so busy changing the world

Just one smile and you could change all of mine

We share the same soul"

-Angel:Jack Johnson

Current addictions: Cafe World, Springtime and shorts, the thunder i hear out my window

"Grace and peace to you from God the Father and Lord Jesus Christ." -Romans 1:7

Edit: one more thing.

yesterday we were messing with the new Tahoe, and my Pa was trying to help me pop up the back seat. He pressed the button that folds down the other seat, and the seat whacked him in the face and knocked his glasses to the floor. I didn't see it, but when i stood up i saw my hilarious grandfather staring at me with a shocked face and no glasses on. we both immediately fell over laughing, and he mentioned it every twenty minutes for the rest of the night. It was a moment, let me tell ya. Go hug someone. I'm going to.